THE SEARCH for PASSION: A SOLITARY JOURNEY of INTENTION
If you don’t know what your passion is, realize that one reason for your existence on earth is to find it.
What I Know for Sure [September 2001]
Another New Year has debuted reemphasizing the inevitability of the relentless passing of time. A never-ending cacophony of voices, emerging from known and unknown sources hammer away on the theme of New Year resolutions and why everyone under the sun should have them. A massive guilt trip is perpetrated on those who fall for the okey doke. Unfulfilled dreams and desires are thrown into stark relief creating tension, fostering regret, and hopelessness. This New Year resolve to move beyond the hype and hesitation. Step out on faith acknowledging the yearning existing on the periphery of your consciousness. Embrace it! Own it! Act on it! Cast caution to the wind and go for it!
This year choose to do something different and see it through to completion. Although my targeted audience is aspiring writers, I’m appealing to everyone caught in the grip of conflicting emotions. I’m reaching out to you… the person consumed by desideratum you can’t shake. Make 2019 your year of discovery, preparation, and planning. Commit to finding and accepting your calling. Let 2019 be the year when you stop talking and start acting. If you’re risk-averse, anxious, or afflicted by malaise, take inventory! Adopt an organized approach! Coming to terms with what it is you’ve dreamed of doing for years isn’t an effortless undertaking. It’s not unusual to deny yourself out of fear or a sense of unworthiness. The prize is yours for the taking. The question is, what are you willing to do to turn your dreams into reality? Help yourself by winnowing down a crowded field to get to what matters most. Set aside time to be alone with your thoughts. Find a quiet, comfortable place where you can hear yourself think and receive. If you need background activity, try music or white noise. Avoid the insanity, and inanity of television: it’s a demanding mistress with no regard for an activity as intense as deliberate decision-making.
The search for passion is a journey of introspection, reflection, and purposefulness. It is an uncompromising inward examination and analysis of what it is you want to do more than anything else in life. I firmly believe embracing one’s calling unlocks the doors to peace of mind, gratitude, fulfillment, and joy. I spent years talking about my desire to be an author while finding excuses to mask my fear. I convinced myself I needed a specific set of circumstances in place before I could be the writer I said I wanted to be. I know now my irrational mindset was rooted in an unhealthy preoccupation with the unknown. Understand this, regardless of your belief in spirituality, we all walk by faith. If I knew what to expect each day, rest assured it would affect the choices I make. Acknowledging one’s passion and accepting it requires surrender. You’ve got to let go of what you think you know and allow yourself to be led by a loving, benevolent, and omniscient Universe.
As part of your preparation, utilize a legal pad and working writing instruments. Divide the first page into two columns and include the day’s date and time in the upper left corner. Label the left column, THINGS I REALLY WANT TO DO. Record everything you want to do without over-thinking the process. These activities should readily come to mind once you’ve begun recording them. No elaboration is necessary. You’re simply enumerating everything you believe you’d like to do right now. Don’t spend time trying to remember. Relax and enjoy the exercise; you’re doing it for yourself, which is a beautiful thing. Once you’ve reached the end, set the list aside for twenty-four to forty-eight hours.
Taking inventory is a deliberate process of elimination. There are or should be other pursuits you’ve seriously considered. Your list offers an opportunity to intuitively assess them and determine which ones are genuine. Remember, you aren’t creating a bucket list. Pursuing your passion is all about living, zestfully, joyously, and consciously. During the twenty-four to forty-eight-hour interval, what you’ve identified should be marinating in your head and heart. By the time you resume this activity, and please honor the timeframe, something should have risen to the top. Once again set aside time for peaceful review. Create a new heading on the right entitled, THINGS I DON’T WANT TO DO. Go through your compilation, item by item, identifying what you definitely don’t want to do; transfer each one to the aforementioned column. Treat the effort respectfully; it’s all about you. Using your tablet, write out the reasons for your interest in the remaining options and rank them. Be specific! Carefully consider your explanations and their effect on your choice. Have you used the same justification more than once? Do you see a theme or a pattern emerging? Again, don’t over-exert yourself. The goal is to identify the one thing you really want to do. What you’re doing emanates from deep inside; it isn’t meant to be easy or simple… It’s intentional soul-searching; don’t run from it; don’t be afraid.
Once you’re clear about what it is you feel called to do, accept and own it! Spend time in serious contemplation and prayer. Next, begin preparing yourself. You’re about to undertake a life-changing endeavor. Trust your intuition and instincts for they are your connections to the Universe. Pursuing your heart’s desire isn’t a cakewalk or a stroll in the park. You may have to uproot and relocate. There will be changes and you will be confronted with challenges. They may materialize in tempting offers to do something else. You will be tested. There will be missteps, false starts, disappointments, and setbacks. They’re all part o life. You’ve accepted a divine call to use your gifts in a particular way; nonetheless you must still find your way and navigate uncharted waters. You must consciously make room in your life to be who and what you’ve been called to be. Becoming the person you were divinely destined to be requires self-discipline in all areas of your life. Nothing is more sacred than honoring your calling. Keep an open mind and a receptive heart. Moving forward means starting over.
Learn to let go of what you thought you knew. You’re a work in progress, you’re evolving and if you’re willing, you’ll find the journey meaningful in unexpected ways. The Universe will affirm your embrace in large and small ways at just the right times, providing energy and inspiration. By releasing your expectations you’ll be pleasantly surprised by how your life and mission merge. Finding and pursuing your passion is a solitary journey. The path you tread is meant for you and you alone. It doesn’t mean life will suddenly become perfect. Commitment is a necessity; don’t deviate. And integrity is a must. Always be honest with yourself! Own your feelings, examine them and be proactive!
Another New Year has debuted reemphasizing the inevitability of the relentless passing of time. A never-ending cacophony of voices, emerging from known and unknown sources hammer away on the theme of New Year resolutions and why everyone under the sun should have them. A massive guilt trip is perpetrated on those who fall for the okey doke. Unfulfilled dreams and desires are thrown into stark relief creating tension, fostering regret, and hopelessness. This New Year resolve to step out on faith and acknowledge the yearning existing on the periphery of your consciousness. Embrace it! Own it! Act on it! Cast caution to the wind and go for it!
I see fear as this little creature that lives in my life all the time, and I can either pay it attention and not get anything done or I can march ahead and ignore it.
Reese Witherspoon in Marie Claire
©November 3, 2018 by Theresa W. Bennett-Wilkes. All rights reserved.